Holiday on ice

Sometimes it is easy to walk on water. You don't need much faith to take the first step, even though it might give a feeling of butterflies in your stomach. That is when the lake or sea has frozen over. When you really need faith is when the water is open and cold, a storm is moving in. Who wants to take a step out on the water then? Well, this is all about faith, I know, you can't really walk on water. Sorry, how banal! But I think that sometimes God gives you a feeling of a frozen lake to help you take the first step out...will the ice hold for you?

Tjuvhålsundet, Luleå

Happy new year

Katarina kyrka på nyårsnatten

I think it is great with a chance to summon up a part of life and then to start something new. On the other hand that is something I do all the time.. I'm a bit of a nerd with that :-) What I have problems with is the new year. I think that I'm not really into the thing of expecting something of myself or others. Circumstances are things that you yourself don't have any power over. The only power you have is how to meet them. Good or bad I hope for myself that I count with God in everything that I meet this year. That is something I expect.

Stomach

Everything seems to end up there, in the stomach. The butterflies when love is around, the neurosity when you are going to do something in front of people, the pain when you are stressed and not thinking of what you're doing. And this is my situation now. I've been on the computer playing "spider harp" at all times when I should have done other much more important and good things. So here I am with a stress stomach trying to recover and again I just have to unload the games on my computer. Once an addict, always an addict.

Nutcracker at Christmas time

Christmas is soon here, everybody is planning. But it is not enjoyable to make plans for everybody. Some people doesn't have anyone to plan with or to celebrate with. Who knows that it is Jesus birthday we're celebrating? It is so much just a matter of making the right food, making the table in a fashionable way, buying the best Christmas-present, ever...I have met a lady in the streets of Stockholm. She was sitting outside systembolaget a sunny summers day. She was in a terrible state, but she gave me a wonderful smile and said: could you give me some coins? On my way into systembolaget I had mixed feelings. But I gave her some coins and said "God bless you" and felt like a real hyopcrite! But then she gave me an even brighter smile and said "God bless you"! I couldn't get the smile out of my face... Now, once in while I see her, and just yesterday I saw her in telefonplan. She looked rested. I'm to shy to talk to her, but I will again some day, hopefully before Christmas...

Balance

How to keep a good balance in life? Well today I think I got it. I need God, friends, Church, work, creativity, but most of all, Love. Or in all of it, there has to be love; love is the engine of life. So when driven by love I can see beyond "me beeing enough" as is usually my problem. It isn't about me. And I can see what would be good for me to do now, if I want to be driven by love. Well, of course, I have to bake some buns, or saffron bread. It makes me complete for tonight! See ya tomorrow.

Good music

Had a pretty busy sunday, but all nice things. Friends trying out their engagement rings, coffe and lunch with Kattis. Church and actually no responsibility, just listening and singing and praying. New and interesting people there, great. Isn't it exciting when you meet someone new? Everybody has a history. I was on my way home after delivering an important paper, but some of my friends from church were on their way to Glenn Miller caf'e to listen to Anna Christoffersson och Steve Dobrogoz. Went with them. So great, I just love this place, it is exactly how you want a jazz place to be; good music, nice food and drink and small and cosy not big enough most of the time...

God and love and time

Padjelanta 06

God is love, love is relationships. There is no love without subject. It has to be a me and a you or we and you. And I am talking about the giving love, agape, love that doesn't seek its own. That is an explanation to why God is three in one God. God is love and a subject aswell. God does'nt need us, but wants us.

It is amazing what comes to you when you're talking to someone. When you really meet. I know this isn't new, no way, but sometimes it just hits you. It is good to talk and share thoughts and that takes time. Give time to each other.